Sunday, February 19, 2017

February 18, 2017

He's 17!

Noah turned 17 today.  My sweet little baby is growing up.  He's had a rough few years and he's really starting to come into his own and figure out this thing called life.  I'm so proud of the man he is becoming and the choices he is making.  Even though he is still figuring things out, he is using wisdom and counseling with He who gives the best advice.

I'm amazed that I was entrusted with this special spirit, and I'm grateful every day that I was blessed to be his mom.

Blessing:  My sweet boy.  Lesson:  He has much to teach me, if I'm willing to learn.

February 17, 2017

It's really a torture device!

So I tried out my new ankle brace today.  I've been trying to exercise more...and it's killing my (defective) ankle.  That brace is ridiculous.  It takes forever to put on....but it's higher, has gel in it so it molds to my foot and it made walking on the treadmill easier.  But once I took it off...YOWZA!  But I think it will help in the long run.  I have to start taking care of myself, and I'm grateful I have some tools at my disposal to make that possible.  I just have to not be a wimp and stay dedicated.

Blessing:  I have what I need to get and be healthy (I just have to not get in my way).  Lesson:  I'm getting old.

February 16, 2017

No Way!

I actually had time to do some cleaning today!  That never happens.  My house is never clean.  Like NEVER!  We are the clutter capital of the United States...actually I don't know if we are or not...it just feels that way.

But it felt good to get things cleaned up some.

Blessing:  Having some extra time.  Lesson:  Making the most of the time we have.

February 15, 2017

Another One Bites the Dust

One our way to Salt Lake...again, and I got a massive rock chip.  I swear it was an asteroid and not a rock.  Sigh....I just replaced the windshield last summer.  But considering how much time I spend driving to and from Salt Lake for doctors, I guess it isn't particularly surprising.  Still a bummer.  But I'm grateful I can afford to get it fixed.

Blessing:  That we have enough and then some.  Lesson: Drive less?  Not feasible.  Evasive maneuvers?  I'd get pulled over for drunk driving.  The best lesson is to roll with the punches.  Life happens and you can make the best of any situation.  We have safe transportation to get to and from doctors and where ever else we need to be.  And I'm extremely grateful for that.

February 14, 2017

Happy Reunification Day!

Valentines Day changed meaning 6 years ago when Grandma passed away.  It's the day she and grandpa got to be reunited.  That is just sort of etched in my heart and mind now.  And I spend the day thinking of them.

I have Felix every day.  He's my best friend  I don't need one day of the year to remember him, I get every day of the year to do it.

Blessing: Families can be together forever.  Lesson: Families can be together forever.

February 13, 2017

And We're Off

Today was the first of 3 appointments in Salt Lake this week.  I always get nervous at Baylee's eye appointments because you can't see Uveitis and Iritis until the damage is done.

But this was a good checkup.  Her eyes are clear and everything looks good.  I always breathe a sigh of relief when these appointments are over.

Blessing:  One less thing to worry about right now.   Lesson:  Have more faith.

February 12, 2017

Just another Sunday

Which means peace.  My batteries get recharged and I get to breathe and take a nap.  Things I love to do.

Blessing:  A day to get it all together.  And I get it once a week.  Lesson:  I need to more fully take advantage of the Sabbath.

February 11, 2017

I'm Funny

My kids love to tell me I'm not funny.  I love proving I am.

Caleb: Do you know the best way to eat a candy bar?
Me: With your mouth.
See!  I'm funny!

They also like getting even!

Caleb: You can't just say whatever you want!
Me: I'm the mom! I can totally say whatever I want!
Caleb: No you can't! Because there are a lot of things that will get you arrested.

This is why I never win.

Blessing:  We all have a sense of humor.    Lesson:  Enjoying the little things is what helps us survive.

February 10, 2017

Another Day, Another Doctor

Yay!  Noah has been 100% cleared with his shoulder.  It's official.  We just didn't tell the doctor that he has already been doing everything for at least a month anyway.

Blessing:  He healed up...really well.  Lesson:  Noah isn't going to jump boulders at Moab any more.

February 9, 2017

A Very Long Day

I went up to Salt Lake today to watch a friends hearing at the Records Committee.  Unfortunately there were some incredibly long hearings before hers and she was last, and I had to leave just as hers was starting.

On the bright side, I was able to spend some time with another friend and her baby...so that was great.  There is always a bright side!

And another bright side....nobody died at home from me being gone.

Blessing:  I was able to be able to support a friend.  The kids can do hard things.  Lesson:  I need to take a step away more often and stop worrying.


February 8, 2017

Another Hospital Day is in the Books

We do this so often.  But I am so grateful we have this available to us.  Baylee's body has been fighting for so long.  I am really hoping that she starts to feel relief soon.  I pray often not for her body to be healed, but for her to have relief and peace...and I know that Heavenly Father has a plan for her.

Blessing:  We have so many opportunities available through modern medicine.  Lesson:  I need to patient.  My timing is not Heavenly Fathers.

February 7, 2017

Singing a Song

So tonight was the talent show for the youth.  I went to city council meeting, but Felix sent videos.  Noah played guitar and rocked it as usual.  He is so incredible talented when it comes to musical instruments.  I've never seen someone pick up an instruments and just say, I think I'll learn to play this today...and then he does.

Baylee played a song that her friend taught her to play and sang.  She sings so beautifully.  She has soul in her voice.  It's awesome.

I'm so proud of my kids.  Noah hates performing, but will on occasion, and Baylee likes it, but under certain circumstances.

Blessing:  I love that my kids have outlets for their stress and their struggles.  Lesson:  They are developing wings... I need to help them fly.

February 6, 2017

Music Soothes the Soul

Although, I don't know how true that is when it's Queen.

We were in the car and the kids were singing at the top of their lungs.  So I captured it on film...then Caleb noticed and he has a thing about being video'd.  And that made it funnier because every once in a while he would pop up and say "You will burn!"  Now that's funny.

Blessing:  I love it when my kids get along.  It's happening more and more.  "They" said it would happen.  There were years I didn't believe it was possible...but it's true!  It's really, really true!  Lesson:  Believe the best in people...even your kids.

February 5, 2017

Sunday, Blessed Sunday

Sundays are good.  I love Sundays.  I look back on my life, at the times I wasn't as active as I should have been and I wonder why.  Why I didn't see or understand the blessing of the gospel?  Why I didn't see the hand of God so fully in my life?  Why I didn't understand the Saviors role so fully?  And why I didn't see how much He loved me....and just me?  Am I worthy of it all.  Probably not.  But that wouldn't have changed what the Savior did.

And I love my Sunday School class.  I love sharing with them...helping them explore and figure out what the Gospel is to them.  Helping them to figure out, for themselves how much they are loved.

Blessing:  Having a calling that I love.  Lesson:  That I need to work harder to create a fuller lesson for my class so they will feel the Spirit more fully.

February 4, 2017

Confessions of Youth

Apparently Caleb's honesty from yesterday was contagious.  We were all sitting around the table talking and we starting discussing things that the kids had done when they were little.

Here's just a sample:

-Fake collections from neighbors for "ill grandmother"
-spray painting under the trampoline (in preparation for spray painting the cats)
-praying mantis death matches
-Roly Poly death camps
-Running away and sneaking back in the house while we were looking for said child


Caleb seemed pretty mild after that.  Poor Noah missed out because he was at work...but I don't know if I could take what he could have added to the conversation.

I love my kids and their sense of adventure...and that they had a childhood!

Blessing:  They were kids, they had fun...  Lesson:  Was I really that oblivious?

February 3, 2017

A Little Too Honest

So Caleb is quite the pre teen.  He wants something, but we won't just GIVE it to him.  We have been making an effort to have the kids WORK for things.  We have spoiled them horribly.  The circumstances of our lives and the amount of time we spend at doctors and in hospitals turned us more toward emotional health and we got lazy.  We started correcting that, but not without some backlash.  So this little gem happened this morning.

Morning Conversation (after a conversation gone awry about why headphones have to be earned not just "gifted"):
On the drive to school....
Felix: [Puts on original Petes Dragon Soundtrack]
Me: I'm so done with you and it's 8:15 in the morning.
Caleb: This is not helping my fiery, burning rage against you.
Silence until we get to school.
Me: I love you have a good day at school.
Caleb: I love you too. (Turning to male parental unit) [Growls]

There is some definite humor in him taking it out on Felix.  I kept telling him I had to talk to his dad.  I'm the one that said he had to earn them...but somehow it was Felix's fault.  And somehow, I came out the favorite.  At least I can say, that Caleb is incredibly honest about how he is feeling.

Blessing:  Our kids are all very honest.  They don't hold back.  Lesson:  Maybe we should teach them some tact.

February 2, 2017

And the Groundhog Says.....

Okay...Groundhog Day always cracks me up.  6 more weeks of winter?  Winter is ending early?  But this year...there were memes a plenty...and almost every single one was making fun of people who weren't happy about the election.  Puxatawny Phil said 6 more weeks of winter and all over social media all you could see was #notmygroundhog.  It was a pretty funny day.  And I have to admit...I have some pretty funny friends.

So today, I am grateful for humor and laughter.  Two things that I do not know how to survive without.

Blessing:  We are here to experience joy...it is called the Plan of Happiness after all.  Lesson:  I need to do a better job of looking for the joy....I've gotten a little lazy.

Thursday, February 2, 2017

February 1, 2017

Land of the Free

I went to a Constitutional Conservative luncheon today.  It was pretty awesome.  I've gotten more and more involved into politics, much to the dismay of some of my children.  But after the luncheon today, I realize I need to spend more time studying the constitution the effect that any type of change could have on the nation as a whole.

It is nice to socialize with like minded individuals.

Blessing: Meeting people who care so deeply about the city/state/nation.  Lesson:  I have work to do.

January 31, 2017

About Last Night

I've been thinking about last night all day.  Keara's roommate has been depressed and very close to suicide.  They called the police and they wouldn't do anything.  It's hard to do anything when the person is an adult and is very calm and rational.  So Keara asked us to come over and talk to her.  Baylee came and shared her experiences with suicide and depression, I shared mine and Savannah shared hers.  We talked to her about her options, that it wasn't black and white, live or die.  That she could get help through hospitalization or medication.  What is sad, is I don't know how open to it she is.

There are several things that I am grateful for though: That Keara can ask for help.  That my girls are willing to share their experiences to help someone else.  That Heavenly Father helped me to speak openly, honestly and without judgement.  That we were able to share options.

Blessing:  Letting someone know they didn't have to fight their batter alone.  Lesson:  Never ignore the signs/comments/willingness that someone is willing to take their own life.

January 30, 2017

Zen Master

I've gotten back into yoga.  It's really hard to have time to do because I don't like being disturbed when I do it...and since I never know when the kids are all going to be at school, it makes it really, really hard.  But today they were all there.  ALL of them.  But then there are 3 curious cats and a needy poodle.  Will I ever win the yoga battle?  Probably not.  But I did it anyway!

Blessing:  Having time to do something for me.  Lesson:  I need to make sure to make time for me EVERY DAY.

January 29, 2017

Stake Conference

I was gonna skip it.  Yes, I'm a terrible human.  Thankfully my husband got me to go.  And I am so glad.  I needed to be there.  I needed the messages of hope and possibility.  How grateful I am for messengers of God, for direction, for peace.

Blessing: My husband.  Stake Conference.  Lesson: I need to do better and listening and ACTING on the promptings of the Spirit.

January 28, 2017

Good Bye Friend

Today was the funeral of Stephen J Stirling.  He was a youth leader when I was young, and Bishopric member and just all around wonderful person that I was privileged to know when I was growing up.  When I found out he passed away on Tuesday, I sat in the car and cried.  Several of us that had grown up together, shared memories and tried to tag everyone we knew that had grown up together that knew him.  The tributes to him were astounding, and the world was just a better place for having had him in it.

Blessing:  Having had this example in my life.  Lesson:  Be more like the good examples in my life.

January 27, 2017

It's Back

We saw Baylee's Rheumatologist today.  We got confirmation that her arthritis was in full swing.  It wasn't a big surprise.  But you still hate to hear it.  Fortunately, they had already made adjustments to her intravenous medication, but are hesitant to do anything addition so they don't interfere with diagnosis and/or treatment of her stomach.  I hadn't even thought of that.  I guess that is why they get the big bucks.  they have already spoken to all of her other doctors as well.  Which means, when we see them in a few weeks, everyone is already on the same page...that saves us tons of time.

Blessing:  Again...amazing doctors we have been blessed to have in our lives.  Lesson: I need to have a little more faith that these doctors have done their due diligence instead of thinking I have to do it all myself.

January 26, 2017

Just Breathe

Savannah had her PFT's today.  Hopefully this will give us some direction on whether or not her anaphylactic reaction in December was asthmatic or tryptasemic.  Trying to figure out hypertryptasemia is hard.  You just never know what to expect.  Crazy stuff.

Also had JHCS Board Meeting tonight.  I have loved being on the board.  Being surrounded by smart, compassionate, driven people is incredibly inspiring.  I love having a hand in my childrens education and knowing what I do makes a difference in the lives of the students.

Blessing:  Getting answers for Savannah.  Making decisions that will help the school last.  Lesson: I need to not sell myself short.  I am smart, compassionate and driven too.

January 25, 2017

Tickling the Ivory's

Piano's were tuned today!  YAY!  Love it when they are all perfectly tuned!  And how grateful to have come across someone like Brigham Larson with so much talent and kindness.  It is always such a pleasure to be able to sit and chat for a while.

Also had smelly dog groomed.  That is just a giant blessing right there.

Blessings: Knowing talented people and a clean, non-smelly dog.  Lesson: Don't wait so long to get dog groomed.

January 24, 2017

I Can SEE!

Today was LensCrafter day.  I'm torn....LensCrafters is the most expensive vision care center there is, but it is who our vision insurance covers.  I really don't know if we save money or not.  What I do know...is that 4 people need glasses/contacts and it's expensive!  And wow...thanks to two with astigmatism...can you just say meteoric rise in costs!  But you know what, how blessed we are that we can afford it.  How blessed we are that we live in a first world country that we have access to this.  How blessed we are that we have insurance.  How blessed we are that are needs and many wants are met.  How blessed we are.

Blessing:  The kids can see again!  Lesson:  Always plan more time than they say you will need.

January 23, 2017

Hmmmm.

Soooooo, apparently the nation has lost it's mind.  There was a "women's" march on Saturday (the day after the inauguration.  But the wouldn't let pro-choice women march.  And Social Media has blown up with everyone fighting about everything...Liberals/conservatives.  It's really crazy that the nations is literally divided in two.  And it's really sad (that from my perspective), everyone who didn't get their way is throwing a ginormous fit.  But you know what...we live in a nation that makes it possible.  And that is pretty cool.

Blessing:  Freedom.  Lesson:  I need to stand for what is right...with kindness and compassion....but STAND.

January 22, 2017

Sunday, Happy Sunday

I love Sunday.  I love my battery recharge.  It wasn't my week to teach..and Kellie is such a great teacher!  But I love this age group!  They are so much fun.  I just needed to be at church today.  Needed the quiet and the respite.  I'm grateful I have that place to go.

Blessing:  The Gospel.  Lesson:  I Need Thee Every Hour.

January 21, 2017

Here We Go Again!

Since Baylee had her procedure yesterday, we kept it mostly quiet.  Felix and I ran a ton of errands...but the kids were mostly quiet.  We tried watching a movie, but Baylee started throwing up again.  Sigh.  Her poor stomach.  She's back on a liquid diet.  I'm grateful we have insurance, and that we have gone through this before, so we don't have to freak out.

Blessing:  She is calm.  Lesson:  I can do hard things...so can she.

January 20, 2017

Procedure Time

Time for Baylees next round of Botox.  Her migraines have been really bad.  I'm guessing mostly because of everything else going on with her body.  But the coolest thing ever...it's not a doctor appointment, but I was able to have a sit down with Dr. Lloyd and tell him what Dr. Giles said about the Lyrica and Topamax and he was in full agreement that we needed to get her off something, just in case and took her right off the Topamax.  He was all in for protecting her body.  That was pretty amazing, that even though it was a procedure day he took the time to talk and listen and PROTECT her.  And the anesthesiologist was just as great listening to her history and said he would take great care of her.

And while she was in her procedure, I listened to most of the inaugeration.  And was sad to see the protests turned into damaging protests.  Sigh.

Blessing:  Great Doctors.  An awesome nation (even though it is fractured right now), that can have a peaceful transfer of power.  Lesson:  Even though I'm not perfect, I can be peaceful when I don't agree (I did it for the last administration...I hope people can figure it out for this one.)

January 19, 2017

What a Night!

Bunko Night!  Only nobody came, and it was at Liz's house.  I love Liz!  So it was Me, Liz and Glynis.  And honestly...best night ever.  Laughter, tears and just happiness.  I'm so grateful for friends who get me, who let me be me.  Where I don't have to hold back or gloss over anything.  I'm just so grateful for the many blessing and angels I have in my life.  There are so many.

Blessings: The friendships that will stand the test of time and life.  Lesson:  Knowing that Heavenly Father sent people to me.

January 18, 2017

A FREE DAY!

Do you know how rarely I have a day that I don't have to run around like a chicken with my head cut off!  Woohoo!  I love it!  I don't even know what I did today....that's how big of advantage I took of it!

Blessing:  These are my silver lining days!  I love them!  Lesson:  There are blessings in the trials!

January 17, 2017

A Full Day

Days when we jump from doctor to doctor are kind of rough....but in the end, we end up getting answers...and that is a huge blessing.  And I'm so, so, so  grateful for the associations we have with our doctors and the great care my kiddos have!

Blessing: That my kids have people that care about their quality of life (even if I do have to pay them!).  Lesson:  I need to not complain so much about the time in the car!